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Friday, December 31, 2010

Good bye 2010... Happy New Years 2011!!!


Well, here we go with another years gone by. I have to say I will not miss 2010 at the least. I almost lost my husband this year and had some financial woes at the end but we made it. Looking ahead to 2011 I have the usual goals, lose weight, give more, lose weight, be a better person, lose weight, etc.. I hope to be a better person this year than the last, I am excited to see where this years takes me as an owner of a truck, not a company driver. The last few months have sucked with hubs being in the hospital, bad weather, truck troubles, lost our doggie of 13 years (RIP Loki, best dog ever) but again, we made it. We always seem to persevere through, even when it seems hopeless. That is our glue, hubs and I, our bond that keeps us strong. Not that the good times tear us down, but the hard times keeps us fighting together, the team, the union, the winners in the end. We are pulling out of the financial mess, we are getting healthier, we are getting used to the crap weather and it will end (eventually) and all and all the truck troubles are getting less and less as we weed through all the issues. I am really looking forward to some of the goals we have set for ourselves in the health related field, such as joining the Y as soon as financially stable. That right there will help our problem with finding exercise opportunities, and as truck drivers it is so important to make time for that. I plan on being a stickler on our budget to rebuild our savings we lost during our crisis, and then some. We are on a good steady run right now, so all this is possible, sooner than later. Let me just say, good bye to 2010, good riddance, and welcome with open arms 2011!!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

all i want..

I just want to be happy, is that too much to ask. I get excited about anything it irritates him. If I talk, iy irritates him. If I joke, irritates him. I am so fucking tired of this its not even funny. Why is everything I do or say irritating? Its like my very existance is irritating to him. Unless I am just sitting quietly, absorbed in his every word I am irritating. And God forbid he asks a question and I don't answer correctly, that irritates him. If everything I do, say, think is irritating why don't I just crawl in a hole and stay there. Then maybe you won't be so irritated.

Fuck!!